Your yelling has taken my hearing, but... ...you will not take my SOUL. I am
a survivor...for myself! I am a champion...for my children! I WILL GET US FREE!
I forgive you, but of course I will not forget. My mother, sibblings, and I
have become strong. We are happy, successful and stand tall together. Where are
you? I hope you've gotten the help you need. I AM A SURVIVOR! I AM STRONG! I AM
LOVABLE! I AM CAPABLE! I AM BEAUTIFUL!
13 YEARS OF THERAPY & COUNSELING YET STILL SO MUCH TO REPIAR THANKS FOR RUINING
MY OUT LOOK ON LOVE.
You hurt me and said NEVER tell...But now that I'm grown, you'll never Touch
me again. -Happy to be Free
The Pain is gone But the scars and tears wount go away
You stole something from me & broke my heart. You stole my innocense and my
virginity. I feel broken in every way!!! All because I am gay. Screw you I can't
even be intimate with my boyfriend.
How am I still alive? Middle & High school was HELL. I never thought that I'd
graduate. You all hurled whatever you could at me you put hate notes and gay porn
in my bag and locker. You spread the worst rumors about me. You all told me that
I was broken and unloved, a waste. MY LIFE WILL ALWAYS BE DIFFICULT.
I don't even know you abuser & you tore my heart out. I was 5. Did you make
me a queer? DIE! ABOMINATION, FREAK, FAG, SISSY, TRANS, MONSTER, SLUT
Jack - This is the color of our team leotard. You were such a good coach that
no one believed me - not even the parents. For 20 years I carried the burden even
after you pled guilty. But you know what? You don't have power over me anymore.
Think of the girls I protected from you by going to the police. I could say I hate
you, I could say you've ruined me, but in truth you have my compassion, because I
don't have to go through life fighting the temptation to voilate little girls. Instead,
I FORGIVE YOU i forgive you.
SPOUSAL RAPE. It's a real thing. No matter my reason for saying NO it's my
body. I won it, not you. My feelings matter you FUCKING RAPIST OF A HUSBAND!!!
THAT is why I Divorced you. Like A BIRD I AM FREE. I Got my WINGS OF FREEDOM. I
hope for you that someday you understand the PAIN. I'm working on forgiving you,
for my own inner peace. Hugs to those still in it. Be strong. We deserve better!
I thought family was suppose to protect each other, not touch each other. YOU
MADE ME HATE MYSELF
In 1989 I arrested a men for raping & murdering a 2 year old girl. While in prison
the other prisoners found out what he had done & beat him almost to death. He was
placed in isolation & before he went to trial he hung himself. Justice was served!
I still hear from the child's parents. It is something that will stay with me forever.
Slob, fat, ugly, stop crying, you will never be loved, are you sure you want
to eat that? Dad - I'm leaving. All I ever wanted was to be accepted by you, but
unfortunatly my best was Never good Enough. I wish I could be perfect for you. Words
hurt just as bad as any physical abuse, my scars are just not easily seen. You are
the voice inside my head. The one that tells me I can't. -BT- P.S. I still love you!!!!!
Sometimes I blame myself. I was drunk and had taken a large amount of ecstacy.
I should have just gone home. I was gang raped. Those three nasty men took my virginity.
I was so intoxicated, I don't even remember their faces. I wanted to lose my virginity
in a special way. It changed me. I lost all self-respect. Now I am working on no
longer being a victim. I am repowering myself.
I looked up to you. You were my brother, but you still raped me and still did
the horrible things you did to me. I didn't know what to think. I was so confused.
I didn't know if I should hate you or not. But over the past 10 years I have had time
to think. I know what you did to me was wrong and unforgiveable but I FORGIVE you.
I was only 7 at the time and I didn't understand but I am not 7 anymore and now I
understand a lot more and I know now that behind everything there is a reason for
the things we do. I'm not saying that what you did was okay I'm just saying I understand.
I am now 17 and I hope now that I have forgiven you that you can now forgive yourself.
Cause that's what I want for you. I forgive you, you did hurt me but I forgive you.
There's no use to fighting the one I love. I forgive you I mean it. I love you! Forgiveness.
Strength, faith, love yourself. Both of my sisters have been in abusive & drug
related relationships. 1. one is married with 4 kids. He has anger problems, threatens
her, physically abuses her, emotionally abuses my sister and my mother. They both
have deep depression and suicide has definitely been thought of. He cheats on her
and has turned & caused her to be someone I don't know. I want the big sister back
I know. 2. My other sister was date raped, left in the desert naked, and no recollection
of who did this. She got her kids taken away for something that was not her fault.
She got into bad things & bad relationships that put her into the hospital many times
from being physically abused by 3 diff. boyfriends. She is now dead because of a
guy who was an alcoholic and killed them both. She was just about to get her 3 kis
back. R.I.P. my big sissy Christine Chandler. I love & miss you. I've been a victim
once and will never let it happen again and know it is not my fault & I am strong.
RIP Christine Chandler - 29 years old 1984-2013. I will make my sisters proud and
never let someone abuse me like they were. I need to be strong for them.
Sissy - I'm sorry that mom chose you. We know now that she was very sick.
I'm sorry we always rolled our eyes when you cried, that we never realized how badly
you had been hurt. If I were you I would hate her, but you offer nothing but love.
I wish I had a heart like yours. Love you always.
You are my angel that has kept me safe. You have stayed strong through the
sexual & emotional abuse he put us both through. You are my soldier. This was for
you. I love you mom.
The drugs & threats and torture & mind control have now failed! (I hate you
all!) Through years of therapy I have healed beyond your reach. I remember everything
you did to me and others. Things completely unbelievable are Real! Nightmares ARE
memories. Body pains are no longer mysteries! (Fear does not Rule!) Your lies will
not hide you for long. The powers that stand with me are stronger than you. The illusion
is gone. In memory of those I witnessed killed and sacrificed at the hand of evil.
You Are Not Forgotten! Truth STANDS with ME.
WE ALL ARE BRAVE SURVIVED. I love you. Don't ever be someones slogan cuz you
are poetry. Heather, Alisha, & Andrew, we all have sustained horrific abuse, verbally,
physically, sexually. We are all still Alive physically, but the scars of our terror,
and the big hate in our hearts and in our souls will 4-ever linger. I hope that someday
as a mother & surviver, I can help my 3 beautiful gift's from god be well enough to
love themselves & be loved in return. But still have the knowledge not to forget,
just enough to be safe. I may someday forgive but NEVER Forget, so I may be able
to be here for my baby's not another statistic of Death related to Domestic Violence!
KEEP YOUR eyes ears & head aware & your heart & soul open just a Little until you
KNOW your not in any danger. Heather Boswell Madson.
Dad, You ripped open my heart. I trusted you. I LOVE you. You left me alone.
I love you. You still cause so much pain. I hurt. I love you. I miss you But because
of you I am a new man I am ME! I'm not you I am fill the hole you dug with so many
wonderful things. I love you. Im growing. I HAVE HOPE! I love you!
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